Listen… I get the frustration, but you really do need to talk out your frustrations in a healthy and safe environment. I’ve been there, it sucks but it gets easier.

Lots of us like licking vagina, but oral cums after healing and you need healing. Bandaiding your issues with orgasms is patchwork at best.

There are plenty of online providers. If you’re in a sane country with good mental health care, take advantage of it. If you’re not, see what programs are available to you. Until then I hope you don’t jump on someone cooch first before taking care of your mental.

I’m sure you’re a nice person, probably not as ugly as you think. So please, actually get some help. It worked for me, and I’m hoping it’ll work for you.

I’d talk to a therapist first.

Me when I’m paid monthly

Its not even a strictly male thing either. The amount of women I’ve witnessed completely casually slap, jiggle, etc… their bits is comparable to males (in my totally unscientific and anecdotal experience)