Considered it but I don’t think it matters anymore

Thank you. I agree that there is no wrong way to speak but I feel like there are wrong ways to communicate. I can spend hours asking loved ones questions and listening to their thoughts etc, but I’ve noticed that most don’t ever ask me as many questions as I ask them. They never seem as interested or even as capable of understanding me. I feel like I make an effort to truly understand people, or at the very least to give myself of an understanding of what they’re presenting to me, in ways that are never reciprocated. For example, I have friends I communicate with using very crass language with, as our main relationship is casual with no commitments. I have friends that I share a common affiliation and goals with that are essentially pseudo-coworkers, but the job was school.
Idk I’ve just been feeling lonelier than I ever have before and I was curious what I could learn by sharing my thoughts. I feel embarrassed by how much these replies mean to me but I also feel grateful for any genuine engagement.