non fiction books make me want to kill myself

I usually feel the same. A few notable exceptions I have found:

• [Salt: A World History)] (https://www.markkurlansky.com/books/salt-a-world-history/) - the history of salt is way more interesting than you would think.
• [The Mother Tongue: English and How It Got That Way] (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Mother_Tongue) - English is a damn weird language.
• [A People’s History of the United States] (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_People’s_History_of_the_United_States) - a much more accurate and honest history than the whitewashed version that public schools teach.