Masturbation is a healthy normal part of human existence and is to be celebrated.

NNN is at best a silly joke inspired by Seinfeld’s “master of my domain”. At my most generous, it can serve as a reminder of how great masturbation is because you never miss something as much as when you lose it.

At its worst, it is toxic manosphere incel poison.

Being a virgin means nothing. When you are ready and find a suitably ready partner it will happen. Nothing about you changes. You don’t become a man. Equally staying a virgin is fine too, you always have masturbation! No need to mourn the loss of an experience you weren’t ready for in the first place. It’s really not a big deal. We build it up like its some holy grail but when most people finally do have sex, their reactions leans toward relief for ticking off a checkbox and disapointment that it wasn’t more.

Those who are most unfit, don’t have the ability to reflect on their own fitness.

I respect the position. Its up to each individual to decide for themselves if they want to be the slaves who keep themselves down or if you deserve and then demand better.

I see this one clearly.

As you grow and mature, you realize the vastness in the possibilities of how you act, or react to events in your life. Old you would have considered a relatively limited set of possible options as a response to all of life’s situations, big and small alike.

Equally, as your mind expands to new possibilities within you, you see a broader set of threats and opportunities that the world presents to you trhan you once did.

The fear you are feeling is because your understanding of your place in the world and the world itself has been growing enourmously as of late. It’s a bigger, richer, more dangerous world than you once thought and your dreams are subconciously processing the new possibilities where the stakes, risks and rewards are much higher that you realized.

You haven’t fully come to terms with this. You were comfortable as your old self, but you also realize that there is no going back. The richer more dangerous world was always there, and your being previously unaware of it wasn’t any sort of protection. The Fangs and Treasure chests were always there, and you accept this. What you are still dealing with is your self-image or identity. Who do you choose to be that is capable of navigating this more adventurous and perilous journey. You are growing in to your new you, but the process is incomplete and you still have the opportunity to shape yourself into what you want to face the future.

This is one of the most difficult yet. I’m afraid I might really screw this one up, but I’ll try my best.

Analysis:

Hypothesis 1 - you might just be processing irrational, but quite common and natural fears of insects. If so, you can take this dream at face value. They are terrifying to you and persistent, so your subconcious is trying to grapple with the inevitability of the next encounter. This may be disapointing to read, but dream analysis has so much connection to strong emotions, that I’d estimate this as 80% most likely. No hidden meaning or subtle imagery leading to insight. Bugs creep you out and this dream is like an immune reaction between the rational harmless nature of them, and the irrational involuntary fearful reaction. It’s not entirely unlike PTSD suffering moments of reliving trauma, just at the scale of creepy bugs.

However, there is a chance I’m misinterpreting this because of all the strong emotions, fear can be one of the trickiest to interpret. Irrational fears are even more difficult, and instinctive irrational fears like phobias, the most difficult to interpret of all. I’d estimate a 20% chance of the following alternative hypothesis. Your description contains subtle clues that open up this small possibility.

Hypothesis 2:

Something or someone is confronting you. Not just an obstacle, but the possibility of open conflict. What was once subtle and understated, now risks tearing at the seams. Your opponent, is neither malevolent, nor holding a personal grudge, but you are in their way, and they will boot stomp you if they have to.

You on the other hand are just doing what you beleive is right and expected of you. You are following the rules and confident in your position. Neither help nor hindrance is intended to your opponent and you see yourself as neutral, but you are blocking them from achieving something important to them.

An alarm is going off in your head that something bad is going to happen to you if this can’t be resolved. You haven’t decided what to do about it, but you have options to consider. Capitulate and withdraw your obstruction, but suffer a wound to your integrity. You could keep your obstruction intact and help your opponent overcome your barrier - as close to a win win as you can get, but those around you two may perceive this as collusion. You could stand your ground as is, but you understand you will suffer the other’s wrath and make an enemy in the process. Other possibilities exist, like going on the attack, but the one thing you understand is there is no perfect choice. No matter what you do, you will have positive and negative outcomes, but you are grateful you have the choice to pick your poison and choose the lesser of two evils.

That’s what I needed. Makes sense to me now. I’m feeling it.

Analysis: Subconciously you recognize that the life you and your loved ones are living is caught in a fragile system. All your daily needs and dependencies that were taken for granted as reliable without thought or effort, are now viewed as brittle, prone to fracture and even outright breakage.

No Idea what your specifics are, but you are starting to understand on some level that the things you took for granted might not always be available. Could be a bus schedule that isn’t followed reliably, or a road that is closed for maintenance makes your life more difficult. Maybe the power goes out in your neighborhood more frequently. Maybe your school closes due to maintenance. Maybe some combination of all of the above.

You want to reach out to the people responsible for this, but you already know what they’ll say. “Oh, we’re improving the system! It will be better than ever.” But you don’t beleive it. You’ve come to terms that you need to make your own arrngements for the unreliability in your life. Reach out to others to make arrangement. If a school closes for a week, have a pool of parents who can share babysitting/homeschooling kids so the workload is shared. If transportation stops, have alternate routing or carpool with others. You can’t always rely on previously reliable systems, but you can always rely on your friends.

White hat speaks to what they do, not their profficiency at it.

Hmm. Not much to go on here. This one might be extra shitty, but here goes…

Analysis: You have a grand ambition percolating within you. Something that will benefit not just you and those you love, but an impactful major improvement that means a lot to a great number of people including complete strangers. Your subconcious self intuits the difficulty, even though you have not yet formed a plan or understood how to get to and through each stage of your ambition. You’re searching for help in any form, people, tools, systems that can help you bridge the gaps you see and clear the fog that prevents you from seeing your potential paths.

Your frustrations have made you realized that you aren’t ready to achieve your ambition yet and you are seeking a new body of knowledge in an unfamiliar domain that will enlighten you in ways that can finally advance your goals.

Find experts. Call people. Read widely in the library. Explore. Once you grasp the missing knowledge, you can move from planning to execution.

Self discovery is good. This is all very sudden. I suggest considering holding back on HRT and Planned Parenthood, temporarily, until you more fully digest your discovery. It’s hard to hold back when you are excited about something, but please try your best.

First steps, before even making pronouncements to your friends and family, is to live as a transwoman. Does it feel right? It’s not exactly an easy life, but neither is hiding who you are.

Let the initial euphoria wash over you and try a calm lived experience. Don’t try to “act feminine”, try to explore who you are and what feels right. Transwomen can be tomboyish, or feminine and be attracted to partners of any variety, or really anything else under the sun. Remove your preconceptions and discover more about yourself and who you really are. Just try to be honest with yourself. Explore, discretely at first and let your public image grow with your confidence in your self discovery and identity.

Once you know, temper even that with the knowledge that you are a living being who changes and grows. Over time your identity may as well, it may not. Time will tell.

Next steps, try living a day publicly as your true self, whatever that may be. Then another day, and another. Grow into it organically, then when you are ready, take the next steps like HRT, surgery or whatever else is right for you.

My caution is because your post highlighted that you didn’t understand something important about yourself for 38 years. My suggestions are in the hope you don’t prejudice your self discovery again by concluding who you are based on current taxonomic structures. Labels can hinder as much as help. If you are a transwoman, great. Find out what kind, then live your best life.

Good luck!

This is more why you must protest and insist on change, than any possible excuse not to.

A white hat would design their own AI for the specific purpose of stress testing a security system.

A white hat, singular. Sorry if I misunderstood. In retrospect you could have been implying a white hat org.

Lol. I don’t think I have that much in me to give. I appreciate the apreciation. Let’s just enjoy these moments for what they are for now.

I need the details of the random convoluted stuff. What doesn’t make sense to you is everything to a dream analysis. It’s essential. Try your best to recall and give me what details you can.

Who am I to disagree?

Everything is connected. Russia’s invasion of Ukraine is driven primarily for the desire for their resources, primarily their fertile black soils. It’s a globally significant breadbasket that under increasing climate change becomes a strategic asset.

Don’t assume that a lemmy post will be a complete picture of everything.

You have been wronged by someone close to you. Nothing egregious, but you bare scars and resentment. You are too well mannered to address your greivances, and likely consider direct confrontation, poor taste, and not likely to be accepted by your peers. You think it would be seen as petty of you.

Your preferred option is to have someone else who was a witness to your wronging, to stand up for you as a disinterested 3rd party, the opening up the door for redress and justice while maintaining your composure. The problem is, no one is standing up for you and you know it. You now understand that your preferred path only leads to nowhere.

You have a choice to make. Wear your scars in disgrace. Confront your agressor in what will be a pyrrhic victory at best, or seek a third option - anonymous petty revenge. Perhaps a campaign of malicious compliance, I can’t tell more specifics because you haven’t fully considered all your options.

It’s shit, but it’s good shit.

I need one actual dream, not a thematic summary of perceived patterns.

Your life is in transition, and you haven’t decided which of many paths before you you want to take. You risk rejecting all paths foreward and could stall. Staying for a short spell isn’t always a bad thing, but be careful of losing momentum and growing complacent.

Analysis: You need to get out more.